Supernatural Provision

The Lord is calling me out onto the waters. The great unknown. Where feet may fail.

He is leading me into a season where security, especially financial security, is something He’s asking me to trust Him with fully and completely. To the world, not getting a full time job (or even a consistent part time job) may seem irresponsible, lazy, and foolish. But I am no longer trying to impress the world. If I live to save face, I deface Christ. And I refuse to let that tragedy play out in my life.

I just moved back down to Iowa to start establishing a ministry that reaches out to college students who attend various college campuses in the area. I am working with a wonderful couple who has 30+ years of experience in ministry and a passion for seeing God’s presence and power transform young people. This is an exciting season, but also one that I approach with great honor. The Lord has told me that this is a training and equipping time!…one that will be filled with moments of glorious joy, but also moments of great growth as this local mission field prepares me for the international mission field!

That being said, building a ministry from the ground up doesn’t usually lend itself well to a reliable means of income… BUT I would like to invite you into my story as I testify to a central, yet seldom realized, facet of God’s character: All-Sufficient Provider. After all, He has loved and redeemed us in order that He might “show us the immeasurable riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus” (Ephesians 2:7).

Supernatural provision is something that Christ died for us to have. We were never meant to live in lack. Before the fall, Adam was given the wonderful responsibility to “tend” the garden. He didn’t have to pull weeds or do anything to make the fruit grow on the trees. He had the privilege of simply enjoying God’s full provision. But with the fall, came the curse of original sin which included laboring, toiling, and working the land. In Genesis 3:17-18 God says to Adam, “Because you have listened to the voice of your wife and have eaten of the tree of which I commanded you, ‘You shall not eat of it,’ cursed is the ground because of you. In toil, you shall eat of it all the days of your life. Both thorns and thistles shall it bring forth for you…”

This is known as “the curse of thorns.” Many Christians still live under this heavy curse, unaware of the abundance available to them. But there is good news! “Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us – for it is written, ‘Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree'” (Galatians 3:13). Christ literally took the FULL weight of the curse of thorns upon Himself and set us free – “twisting together a crown of thorns, they placed it on Him” (Mark 15:17). Not only did He take care of sin, death, and sickness, but He also took care of poverty and lack. 

Join me as I discover the overwhelming goodness of God. It all started when I traveled down to Bethel Church in Redding, CA and attended one of their weekend services. I went forward for prayer and told the lady to pray for some things that had been on my heart. I honestly don’t even remember what I asked her to pray about now, because immediately the Spirit led her to pray for something completely different. She said, “Wow, God is going to meet your every need. He is bringing great provision into your life. Financial provision. He’s saying, ‘Alyssa, you have nothing to worry about. You can trust me with this.'” Whoa. There was no way that she could have known that I was heading into a summer at an unpaid internship. Or that I was heading into a year of full-time ministry. But God did. And my tears showed it.

This summer, God did nothing but prove Himself faithful to me in this area. One early Sunday morning in July, I was driving to church, and what started out as a light pitter patter of rain turned into a torrential downpour. My windshield wipers couldn’t keep up with the rain, and I literally feared for my life. I took the first exit I saw off the highway and pulled up under the protective roof of a gas station. As I sat there, I realized that my gas tank was almost empty. My first thought was, “Well, this is convenient. I can just fill up now, since I have to wait here ten minutes anyway for the storm to pass.” Then I remembered that I didn’t have enough money in my checking account to fill my tank all the way, and in my spirit, I heard God say, “Wait.” I asked, “What do you mean ‘wait’? I won’t have enough gas in my gas tank to get to work tomorrow morning if I don’t fill up.” Again I heard the word, “Wait,” and I knew God was asking me to rely on Him rather than on my own attempts to provide (which would have fallen short). So I looked down at my gas gauge and saw that I had just enough gas to get to church and back. So I waited to fill up.

When I got to church, God was reminding me of different scriptures on provision that I had been studying:

“Give and it will be given to you. Good measure pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be placed into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.” (Luke 6:38)

“And my God shall supply every need of yours according to the riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19)

“The point is this: whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, but whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.” (2 Corinthians 9:6)

He also reminded me of something I heard in a Bill Johnson sermon the day before that said, “The first time God ever supernaturally provided for you, you lost the right to even begin a thought pattern based on lack/what you don’t have.” Wow… That means that I am charged with the responsibility to continually renew my mind so that every thought lines up with the truth of God’s character. Not an easy task, but one well worth pursuing. This prompted me to start making a list of all the times God had provided for me in the past and to continually meditate on those things. When I had completed my list, my heart was filled with thankfulness. I had created an “inventory of blessings” that I could draw on anytime the lie, “You don’t have enough (fill in the blank)” came into my mind.

Then, suddenly I was reminded of something that had happened the day before: I had been reading through one of my old journals with a couple of friends and randomly found a $20 bill in it. I didn’t know where the money had come from…the only thing I could think of was that someone must have given it to me for missions. Thinking about that triggered a memory of someone else giving me an envelope with money in it for missions. Sure enough, I looked and found an envelope with $60 more. I then had $80 all together.

This put me in a tight spot. I had an empty tank of gas. And I had $80 in my hand that I knew was NOT for me, but rather was designated for building God’s Kingdom. So, I started asking God, “What do you want me to do with this money?” And right away, He reminded me of a friend who was leaving in about month to do mission work in Tanzania at an orphanage. He said, “Give the money to Kelly!” I thought to myself, “That’s perfect! I’ve been wanting to give her money ever since I heard about her trip!” But I didn’t want to just give $80…I felt like God was leading me to give her $100. So now, not only did I still have an empty tank and couldn’t get to work the next day, but I was also in need of $20 extra to finish off the donation to Kelly…so I put the $80 in an envelope with her name on it and decided to wait on God to bring in the rest of the money.

Despite the apparent “lack” however, I was in complete peace, trusting that God would provide according to His perfect timing as He has done so many times in the past. As I type, it is still hard for me to believe this happened…but that night, around 9:00 pm, right before I was going to bed, my mother walked in and handed me a small bag that had come from my aunt. She said, “This is from your Godmother, there’s a little gift inside with some money. She said God just put it on her heart to give this to you.” I peeked inside and sure enough, I pulled out a $100 bill.

Whoa. How could this be? Not more than 5 hours after I had decided in my heart to give $100 to God did He faithfully give it back! “Give and it shall be given to you.” Wow. “Whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.” Incredible. His Kingdom principles actually work! They do! I was able to go to the gas station the next morning, fill up my gas tank completely, and was handed two $20 bills in change! This meant that I could complete the donation to Kelly AND that the $20 I gave to her out of the $100 could be my “tithe” back to God.

At the heart of tithing is the idea that everything I have is the Lord’s and giving Him the first 10% is simply giving back to Him the best (and first) of what He’s given to me. A sermon I had recently heard also talked about how the 10% standard was part of the Old Testament law, and that now under the grace we enjoy in the New Testament, we have the privilege of giving over and above that amount. So giving back to God 20% (instead of 10%) of the $100 He gave me was an honor!

And this is only the beginning. This year, I will have to depend on God more than ever before, especially for His provision over my life. But I rest in perfect peace. I remind myself of what God has promised and what Christ has accomplished. In response, I am humbled by the privilege of being His beloved daughter and excited for the adventure of letting Him be my Good Daddy.


1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. a friend
    Jan 17, 2014 @ 23:16:11

    Dearest Alyssa,
    Your blog has touched my heart so much. You don’t know how much it has encouraged and inspired me. Even though I don’t know who you are, I can see our Papa working in and through you. He’s making you in to a beautiful and wonderful woman! I’m incredibly overjoyed and blessed to hear of your story, your ups and downs and how Papa has used them to mold you. You are so precious in his sight. And He loves you so so so much! God bless!


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